Bound not to Fulfill in this Lifetime.

Bound not to fulfill in this lifetime. This author writes:

Matinee idol image. It has to be emphasized that I indeed accepted that it shall no longer happen in this lifetime. We're bound to fulfill each one's destiny. I must have been hallucinating every time this aspiration comes to mind. At my age and receding hair line, I have long given up. Anyways, Papa Chen of My Binondo Girl fame, at 45 is an exception.

Singer. Despite being videoke fanatic, I can still differentiate illusions from reality. Videoke is one great magic to the lives of the Filipinoes (Pilipino lang) people. This includes mine, to a certain extent. This is one serious issue I had to struggle in my life. Then, I just don’t understand why God did not give me such talent. i had more than ten years spent as a choir member when all along what I can only contribute was one physical count in choir loft.

In the Philippines where, the one who holds the videoke mike is the greatest singer, our ears are still the ones which define the correct tune – and not the machine who shows numbers based on the created frequency. For someone whose singing career highlight were ill rendition of greatest love of all in town plaza, runner up position in videoke challenge in a Christmas party and an invitation (which I didn’t agree) to sing All my life in an officemate’s wedding, the journey - or shall I say, struggle ends.

There is much that have been considered not likely to happen anymore, especially those involved age and height limit, or something that one would only come across once. High School valedictorian. Bikini open contestant. Millionaire at 30 or hundred thousand (in a month) earner in my twenties. At iyong ultimate, being a teenager na nag-college sa UP. I am basically of Manny Pacquiao's age but my earnings, isang bahin (one sneeze) lang ni Ninong Manny.

I can’t say I don’t have regrets. Most people say, they would be where they are if not of their mistakes. I don’t know. It is where God put me whether I made mistake or not. Believe me, where I am is not a bad place to be in. I have long moved on, I just mention these things because these are my experiences.

That’s the irony of maintaining this blog, I post to express myself in a wider medium but hoping only few people would read this. It is just hard to say these things with the thought that others may see that I’m glorying myself.

In this aspect, I just want to find closure. In most of my failures and shortcoming, this is how I see it resolved. From here, set new goals. I would still be a Certified Public Accountant, Doctorate degree holder in Math or Statistics and cover of Men’s Health Magazine with six-pack abs.


(Photo: Ang peg ng matinee idol - naka-shades at nakpamaywang.)